Finding Christ: Fear

I am afraid. I am not afraid of being held accountable for my actions by a superior being. I am not afraid of having to be obedient. I am afraid of losing my ability to think rationally. I fear that once my mind starts letting blind faith creep in, a flood gate of irrational thoughts will come through. I fear that I will end up like these guys:




Perhaps worst of all, I fear that my fear will keep me away from you God. I am afraid that my unwillingness to think irrationally will close my mind and my "heart" off from you. God, I have tried reading your Bible, but in all honesty, I think my fear (coupled with other emotions I will touch on) is keeping me from understanding. So God, if you can hear me, please, help me overcome this fear. I'm afraid of what will happen if you can't.