My first journey: Finding Christ

I have never labeled myself in regards to religious belief (or lack thereof). While I've never really felt like something is out there, I have always hoped that there was. My hope has come close to being faith, but a lack of credible evidence, and the irrationality of it all has lead me to accept that more than likely, there isn't anything out there.

I have to admit though, I have met some rational minded people of faith. I see these people, and have a hard time rationalizing to myself that several billion people around the world believe that something greater is out there, and that they can experience it.

There has to be something to it right? Surely the majority of the world isn't crazy, right?

It is because of these rational minded people of faith (RMPoF from here-on-out) that I have decided to seek out this "something." After discussing the fact that I wish to find this "something" with several RMPoF, I have decided to devote myself entirely to finding Christ.

To all the Christians out there I assure you this is not meant as a ploy so that I can say "HA, I told you you guys were wrong!" I am genuinely going to try to forge the spiritual relationship that Christians claim can exist for everybody so long as they truly want it.

I am assuming that it will be all but impossible for me to prove that I "truly" want a relationship with Christ, but for the time being I do.

Say a prayer for me.