Finding Christ: A lack of communication

I have an urge to be extremely sarcastic in this post God, please help me refrain and try to keep it as serious as possible.

I'm trying to read through the book of John with an open mind and an open heart, but every single verse I read, I question. I question it's validity as your inerrant word, I question it's meaning, I question my questions. Honestly it's quite troublesome. As I read it, it seems like it would do a wonderful job of reaffirming belief, but I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that it is your infallible word. It's agonizingly frustrating.

I find myself questioning my own commitment to finding you with every verse I read. I find myself questioning my own rationale every time I try to consider a verse as your word. I find myself questioning every answer that I may find.

God, I'm sure it's extremely too soon to say this, but I feel it must be said. We need to work on our communication. Many people say that the best way to feel you, see you, hear you, and communicate with you, is through scripture. But right now, it's not registering properly with my skeptical mind. So if there is anyway that you can guide me through my readings, or if there is anyway that I can feel the Spirit (which I suppose is you) guiding me , please help.